a stirring of the spirit

Last weekend till this week was a blast.

Saturday, finally finished teaching a WFL term, and went for mother's dinner with my family. It was the usual exciting conversations on politics and economics (it runs in the blood from my dad that me & my bros enjoy econs), and a great time of catching up. Yet strangely, during and after the dinner, i had such a burden for my family's salvation that i cried after i got home. Not that it was the first time, but i think it being mother's day, and that my bros are grown-ups now, had an impact on me... i guess i was also discouraged that my mum rejected my invitation to mum's day service the next day.

The verse Matt 16:26 kept ringing in me. "What good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world, yet forfeits his soul? Or what can a man give in exchange for his soul?" I guess it's coz' my parents and bros are pretty smart people (all graduates and bro in gifted prog), but yet they are like any other person on earth who would chase after material weath (nothing wrong in itself) and forget about the question of eternity, remaining prideful of their own wisdom & abilities rather than humbling themselves to see that "the wisdom of this world is foolishness in God's sight" 1 Cor 3:19. Anyways, i'll just keep doing what i need to do for them, and God will touch them in His timing :)

Mothers' Day service was beyond words. I was tearing almost the whole time coz' God's presence & love was so strongly felt! I was just so touched by His love and His faithfulness that mums of 7 of our Jedi bros & sis joined us. I know how much courage it takes to invite our parents, and how much my bros and sisters in Christ are praying for their parents to know Him too. I was praying like crazy for the parents to be touched by God's love!

My God is a Good & Faithful God who keeps His promises :)

Throughout this week, the Holy Spirit has been stirring in my heart, speaking to me some of God's direction in my life too. It's a wonderful feeling to sense God's leading and be surprised by Him when i obey Him in little things e.g. what to do tonight, what to read, who to meet etc. and I really enjoy being in His presence, whether it's in prayers or in meeting His people. He's definitely convicted me to spend more time in prayers everyday as He whispered that it's the beginning of some of His plans for my future to come. (80% of our time is in preparation for 20% of that specific calling of God) Influential people of God spend 2-3 hours in prayers everyday, and i want to aim towards that by His grace! ;o I wanna become, and not just that, I wanna build up people of God, whom God would call Friends :)

It's been a fulfilling week living in step with the spirit, and i hope it'll be like this everyday of my life! Even in troubled & hectic times of everyday living, i have peace coz' He lives in me...

listenin: My Tree (really beautiful song by Chris Rice)

feelin: at peace

On a hill far away stands a tall mighty tree
Where a boy and girl used to take turns pushing the tire swing
I remember the pocketknife in hand
And her name in my heart
And thinkin' there ain't no way for a boy to contain
The love that he feels inside
So I carved her name into my tree
Then I carved a heart around her name
Then I carved an arrow through the heart
Just to say "I love you"

Now on a hill far away stood an old rugged cross
The emblem of suffering and shame
I remember the nails through my hands
And your name in my heart
And how in their wordless way the nails explain
The love that I feel inside
As they carved your name into my tree
Where I wrapped my heart around your name
Then I took your arrow through my heart
Just to say, "I love you"
Just to say, "I love you"

Now I can never forget how much you mean to me
'Cause I will always remember whenever I see

Where I carved your name into my tree
Where I wrapped my heart around your name
Then I took your arrow through my heart
Just to say, "I love you"
Just to say, "I love you"